Day 10

Above, from left to right: Nikki, Vanessa, Melody, Me, Calli (my sis), Diane (my mom).
One of my favorite pictures! Taken a few hours before my wedding after we all got our hair done but still in normal clothes...

What a long, long, long day. First thing this morning as I was nuking my breakfast I notice a giant black forest cake with really yummy looking icing & lots of cherries. Oh how tempting! Then my co-worker Katherine told me that she had a dream about me where I was really skinny. Thanks Katherine!! That was just the mental image I needed to stay on track.

But then at lunch time there was a second cake (though not as appealing) and some rice krispy squares (which looked awesome). I wanted to eat it all, but I didn't.

So my supper was disgusting tonight, some chicken in a gross sauce & rice...I couldn't eat it...couldn't even begin to try. So I strayed from the diet a little. I looked at the number of calories in the meal (290) and the number of grams of fat (7) and tried to find something that fit into that category. First try was a chicken cutlet which had 14 g of fat...not a good choice.

Second try was some frozen chili I had made some time ago...it had bison meat (a lower fat meat), mushrooms (allowed), peppers (allowed), tomatoes (allowed) & spices (allowed)...so I ate that. I figured it was about as good as I was going to get in my house at this time. And I threw out about a 1/3 of the portion cuz I figured I should play it a little safe. I still feel really guilty that I couldn't stick to the plan 100%. The scale will tell the true tale tomorrow.

After dinner (& even before) I was really craving protein, like a big juicy steak or some pepperoni. I wanted to eat some but at the same time I didn't want to stray too much from the plan because I don't feel like I've given it a fair enough shot yet. I haven't even had a full week weigh in yet. I don't think one stick of deer pepperoni would make or break my week but it might...and I don't want to get into that mentality that it's "just a little".

Ah! I've said it before & I'll say it again, trying to lose weight is a full time job.