Day 16 (morning)

I had a terrible weekend foodwise. The urge to cheat was overwhelming this weekend. I'm not sure what was causing this though. I had a dream where I was eating licorce so that spawned a licorce craving...plus Tyler was home & eating completely normal food which made me want to eat that (pepperoni, garlic sausage, ice cream, toast).

I also found myself completely dreading eating my Jenny food. Not sure why as most of it was technically pretty appetizing looking (pastas & such), but the mere thought of eating it made me want to barf. So on Saturday & Sunday I found that I had eaten about 1 meal & 1 snack short of my day's worth in calories.

At one point I was even contemplating quitting. I was thinking "is this worth it" & "maybe I'm meant to be fat" & "maybe I don't care and I'd rather eat the chips". I'm fairly certain that the only thing keeping me going was that I was writing on this blog and I couldn't image writing that I had quit or that I had majorly cheated on here. The desire was really strong...

P.S. my lunch (lasagna) tastes like a mix of chalk & black licorce (which i don't like by the way)... :-(