Day 26

Okay, I wanted to confess right away: I gave in to a craving.

I got my nails down right after work so I didn't really find the time to eat my dinner before I went. I emerged from the nail salon at 7pm, hungry & smelling pub wings & steak. So on my drive home I stopped at 7-Eleven and got wings and licorice. I got 6 boneless wings and 2 pieces of licorice.

However, I am not going to feel guilty about this. I believe I exercised portion control here as well as variety control. Before I started Jenny Craig I had 7-Eleven wings at least once/week and I probably got a dozen wings or more. In addition to that I likely would have gotten a pop (non diet of course), chips (which are 300-400 calories a bag), a chocolate bar and some type of candy like gummies or twinkies(& I wonder how I got fat?). Plus I probably would have hit 7-Eleven or another like store and gotten pop/chips/chocolate/baking/candy on a few more nights that week (if not every night).

I want this to be a lifestyle change & it's not going to be if I berate myself for each decision I make. I decided to eat the junk tonight. So I should enjoy it and then move on. Now, should I allow myself to eat the junk every time I have a craving & didn't get around to eating dinner? NO. I want to get to a point where I can say no, where I crave other non-junk food, and where eating the junk is a once in a while thing. I deal with a vending machine daily at work every time I go into our lunch room area. Every day I say no. That's an achievement. It's progress not perfection.

Good news: I wanted chips too and after reading the amount of calories in each of those tinee, tiny bags I set them down & opted for 2 pieces of licorce instead.

This weekend will be a challenge for me because Tyler is coming home & he'll be eating "normal food"...which I will then be craving just on the premise that I can't have it.