Day 39 (minus 7 days) Weigh in Wednesday

Binge day after binge day after binge day has me arriving at weigh in already. The sad news: I gained a few pounds. So the up to date info is the I am down a total of about 10 lbs at this point versus the 12.1 lbs I was down last week.

Thankfully the damage was minimalized to what it was. I cheated, yep every single day this last week. How sad is that? I'm disappointed with myself but I have to move forward. I think I kept cheating this week because I was dwelling on my failure(s). Tomorrow is a new day & the start of a fresh week.

My jenny consultant (it was a different girl this week) was really positive when I talked to her tonight. Instead of making me feel worse about my choices she took the opportunity to do some investigative work on what the obstacles were & how we can prevent them from coming up again. She asked me how the food part was going and I admitted to her that not only am I picky and I don't like at least a 1/3 of the menu but I also desperately need variety in my diet or I tend to stray. Plus I have a strong need for control over my food decisions (I don't like the idea that someone is telling me what to do). So she took out the list of the foods they have & we personalized my entire week. Basically I handpicked what I will be eating this week. Which means if I feel pouty about something then I need to blame myself, cuz I chose it!!!

I feel really positive about this week going forward. Despite my food discretions I did make it to the gym 3 times (2- 45 minutes & 1-25 minute workouts) during the week. That's progress. So my focus for the upcoming week is adherence to my menu plan & going to the gym for my minimum of 3 times. Perhaps my cheat week will get that rebelliousness out of my system for a little while.

I also got a new hairdo last night so I'm hoping that a fresh new look will help motivate me to do my best: if at first you don't succeed, try, try again right?!