Take 2 Week 0 Day 1

Thursday...

Wow, okay so after hosting Christmas, going to a Greek New Year’s, and then doing an all-inclusive Caribbean holiday I am now ready to get back on track with my diet. I went to “Weigh In Wednesday” last night and I was somewhat successful. From Halloween until now I have been able to keep a total of 8 lbs off. Some might say that 8 lbs in 12 weeks is really weak, but I ask that you examine the time period when evaluating my success.

Now as you can see by the picture at left (me in the carribean sea) I still have many 8-pound lumps to go before I reach a decent bathing suit weight.

Sometimes I think that deep down I don’t really want to lose the weight. For most things in my life, when I’ve wanted something that was within my control then I’ve gone after it & been successful. Weight loss should be within my control: I control what goes in my mouth and how much I exercise. However weight loss seems to be one success that eludes me.

My motivation seems to come and go. I seem to have 2 personalities: one that wants all the best for myself & one that wants all the best junk food. I have gone to a few counselors looking for help with the mental aspect of dieting and each one doesn’t seem to understand what I really need: they just try to tell me about a new diet they think will work for me. I guess I can only blame myself for not speaking up when I am meeting them?
My little sis, Calli, is moving in with us this weekend. She is 15, smart, athletic, pretty & a handful. I’m not really sure how the next few months are going to go, as I haven’t lived at home since 2000. However if my memory doesn’t fail me most of my conflict was with Cody my brother, not Calli. Times & ages of changed though so it could be interesting. I’m optimistic.